And God Remembered

Testimony on The Loss of An Unborn Child

Dr. Berger -

This is my testimony that I dreamed of sharing with others after my child was born. When I lost my child I felt as if I had lost the opportunity to tell others about what God had done for me, but the Lord in His goodness showed me that this dream could still become a reality!

What I am about to share is the one of the most important reasons that I never want to forget about or get over my precious son, Joseph Scott Sellers. For to do so would be to forget about what my Lord has done for me.

I would love to have my testimony added to the website! Thank you for the opportunity to share what God has done for me. I hope that it will help someone who may be going through the same situation.

I know that the Lord allowed me to conceive, but I would like to thank you for your part in this miracle!

Thank you,

Carol Sellers
vbcyd@evl.net

And God Remembered

After trying to conceive for almost ten months after my tubal ligation reversal surgery, for the first time, I truly cried out to the Lord to give me a child. Through the Faith Bible Institute I began to see that only He could open a womb.

Genesis 21:1-2

And the LORD visited Sarah as he had said, and the LORD did unto Sarah as he had spoken. For Sarah conceived, and bare Abraham a son in his old age, at the set time of which God had spoken to him.

Genesis 25:21

And Isaac entreated the LORD for his wife, because she was barren: and the LORD was entreated of him, and Rebekah his wife conceived.

Genesis 30:22

And God remembered Rachel, and God hearkened to her, and opened her womb.

Out of these three women, Rachel’s battle with infertility spoke to me the most. Her cry unto Jacob was filled with so much emotion, but the only problem was that she was crying out to a man who had no control over whether she conceived or not. I believe her request has been cried silently in the hearts of many infertile women:

Genesis 30:1

Give me children, or else I die.

I’m not sure, but I think that maybe Rachel wasn’t speaking about a physical death, but a death that happens on the inside, a kind of death associated with infertility, the death of your self-esteem.

I believe that the Lord allowed ten months to pass before I got pregnant so that I could know the pain associated with infertility. Mine was only a short time compared to many women who have battled it for years. I will never know exactly how deep their hurt has been because I have given birth to four children, but I think that Rachel knew about this pain all too well.

On this day, I knelt beside the couch in our family room and cried out to the very same God who opened the wombs of these three ladies. I just opened my heart and was honest with Him about how I wanted a child. I told Him that I knew that He loved me with the same love that He loved these ladies with and that I knew that He had the power to open my womb also. I asked Him to forgive me for not trusting Him fully with it sooner. Then I prayed, "Lord give me a child, or else I die".

Two weeks and three days later on April 27, 2004, at around 5:00 in the afternoon, I am in my bathroom looking at a pregnancy test with TWO LINES this time! There was no doubt in my mind that the same God who opened the wombs of Sarah, Rebekah, and Rachel, had opened the womb of Carol Sellers!

I decided that if the baby was a girl, I would name her Rachel and if it was a boy, he would be named Joseph. This way I would never forget that God had remembered me just as he did Rachel!

I never held Joseph Scott Sellers in my arms, but I had the privilege of holding him within me for 16 weeks. The Lord did not fail me. Even though his life on this earth was short, he is alive in Heaven with the very One who made his life possible and he will live in my heart forever! He heard my cry that day and gave me a child and I will always praise Him for that.