In my previous two entries I covered how and why we came to decide on tubal reversal surgery. Now I want to talk about my anxiety over tubal ligation reversal.
Tubal Ligation Reversal : My Anxiety
When you are making a life changing choice about anything, there is a certain amount of concern to go along with it. I am an extremely sensitive person by nature- I cry at TV commercials! So to say the whole surgery situation, from deciding to have reversal surgery to getting to A Personal Choice was an emotional time for me was putting it mildly. I of course ran the gauntlet of what if’s… what if it doesn’t work, what if I’m making a mistake, and what if I can’t deal with having reversal surgery?
Tubal Ligation Reversal Procedure: Bonds Me and Kevin
Kevin and I talked ALOT about my tubal ligation reversal procedure during this time. We got closer than ever. We talked about what if it didn’t work? Kevin said the odds were in our favor and he would rather take the chance to restore my health and give us the chance of a baby together, than not have any chance at all. Then he said ” What if you AREN’T making a mistake?” He told me that he was tired of seeing me go through so much pain every month and he wanted to see me healthy, happy, and whole. There were times during the two weeks that I would tell Kevin ” I can’t do this! and he would hug me and say ” Yes you can. I will be there for you.” I began to ask myself why couldn’t I deal with having surgery? Well….
Reversal Surgery : My Fears And My Angel
I am HIGHLY needle-phobic ( there has to be some catchy medical term for this that doesn’t sound so lame) and I was a wreck. It’s almost funny to me – to want something so bad but to be so terrified at the same time. And yes- I know- getting pregnant means more needles than this surgery. And yes, I know its not ” that bad”. And yes I know I will be “just fine.” But my ovely sensitive mind just doesn’t work that way.
And then I met the woman who I have decided is an angel…. Well, I haven’t met her yet, but I sure have emailed the heck out of her! I sent an email to Pam Mills expressing my concerns about the tubal ligation reversal procedure. This was way before I had even been sure I was having it. So this tells you how much thought I had put into it.
Pam was nothing but kind, understanding, concerned, and caring. She never once made me feel silly or stupid for the way I feel. Instead, she virtually held my hand and gave me reassurances any time I needed them. I emailed her the day we were to leave to go to North Carolina to let her know I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown, well in my mind anyway. I was on my lunch break that afternoon, sitting in my car trying to keep from hyperventilating, and my cell phone rings. I answered it to hear a ” Hey girl, how are ya?” What a doll to call me to offer reassurances in person! I felt like I was talking to a friend, and it was wonderful to talk to someone who understood.
Submitted by Georgia Peach
The next article by Georgia Peach is Tubal Ligation Reversal Procedure: Georgia Peach Travels For Reversal.
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